I dont want to quit anymore

As of today, I am no longer a part of them.
Now, I am thinking if I was too rush about leaving.
I really cant bear to leave!
I dont want to handover my things, I dont want to no longer have access to the branch. Now, I think I really regretted, I dont want to leave there.
I dont want to......

When I bid goodbye to each and every one of them, I was full of smiles but inside my heart, I alr started crying. I am stupid. I just dont want to show my emotions, I dont want to let them know about my regret so they still thought I am very happy about leaving. Thats what they said. I seem so happy about being free from there.


How long will I take to recover from this depression and to stop missing the place & people?



Our first and last night

Last night, went kbox with them. First time there with them, kind of fun.

He made my day. His constant 'michelle', kindness and sweetness warms me. First time realizing his 'nice'. Actually, he has always been.... But I tried to keep the distant and show the coldness. I finally 'saw' a different side of him and not 'hearing' about him. Maybe if distant wasnt created purposely, we may be good friends now. I was so shocked with his actions alr that day and yesterday he created a few more 'shock'.



Keep in touch, thats what I promised them.
Visits, thats what I promised too.




I need to recover from the recent long depression period.