I always do the wrong things, hurting the wrong people.I really want to help everyone around me, but I failed all the time. How am i supposed to tell other, how much I really want to help them truly and how much I want to cherish them. I am so sorry to those I always show my xiao jie temper on. I am especially sorry towards my family members coz they have to tolerate with me all the time. I want to make everyone happy, I wish I could. I love my family members for being so nice towards me.

My grandpa is admitted in hospital again. I hate it. I hate going to hospital and seeing how sick everyone is over there. I hate the smell there. I hate the atmosphere there. Everyone SHOULD be healthy.

It was so fun making-up my sisters and her friends just now. I really wish I can join them for their prom night, bet they are having fun right now. It feels so good to mix around with young gers. I seem so old as compared to them whereas I seem so young at my workplace. Haha. What a joke when they keep saying that I am so young whereas I am so damm fed up that I am so old.

I want to quit mahjong. For a reason for two, I want to do so.

There is alot of things I wanna get!!! And xmas is coming, new year is coming.
My cousin's wedding coming, he asked me to be jiemeiz and he wants us to wear white. How am I supposed to wear white when I am so damm fat. I realized I cant fit into many of my clothes. What should I do!!!