I will be facing alot of youngsters at work and i always met ppl whu is 1986 too. But looking at them then at myself, I seem so much older then them. What's worst is that I even looked older than girls whu are 4-6years older than me. Oh gosh. I am so depressed with this stupid fact that I look this old. WTH. Whats happening? Looking at the fun my younger sis is having with her frenz now, I am so envious. 4years ago, I am having fun too enjoying school life and graduation time. Right now, they tried hard to cherish the times they are having now because very soon they will be going their OWN WAY. I missed the fun that these young girls are having, the silly topics that they are discussing, the stupid things that they are playing, the innocent ways they are behaving and the friendship they are having. I want to be like them too. The special bonds that they shared. I used to have all these too, but I dun seem to be able to feel it now especially when all my frenz are so busy with their own respective life they are having. I really miss-ed school. I really hate working, it is not work that I actually disliked, I just hated the fact that I am losing alot, losing myself, losing my freedom, losing my fun, losing the things that I actually wanted to do...Last weekend slept ovr at biao jie's hse, I miss-ed my part time job lifestyle, my supper with biao jies and colleagues, gossiping with biao jie, the sleep-overs, etc. What the. Why am I so grumpy abt my life now. Why am I complaining so much. I really dun wan to grow up coz I really miss-ed my past alot, the ME when I have tons of freedom to do what I want. Actually, I do miss-ed the most stupid and silly part of my life when I chiong on project with vernye. Now, I want to do that but I no longer have the chance. I need to read up on books which can teach me how to stay young. Ya, I am very desperate to stay young. I must fight for all the fun that I should deserve before I am really old.



You, ya you. Stop asking me stupid qns.